dear girl,

if I've said this once, I've said this a million times..and in fact..in the back of an orange car in 2004 you were consoling me yourself

maybe you don't want to listen because people only listen to things they wanna hear..so I'll put it here so you can read it when you want to..

you might be offended but as you're one of my good friends..I'm sorry I just gotta let you know how I really feel about this..

I understand what you're going through and I wish I could do something to ease your pain..

however,

some things in life are just like that..you just have to experience it so you'll know how to deal with it because relationships are relationships..tears, pain, misunderstandings will come along b4 you and your partner can be happy together..

I mean..who in the world has a perfect r/s?

every couple will quarrel once in a while..inevitable

if there are issues..deal with it

problems..face it..

BUT,

HOW CAN YOU DO IT ALONE???

your partner ISN'T EVEN TRYING!

you're supposed to work things out together!

if he's not even making an effort..

why do this to yourself?

and..TRY itself is a lousy word..either you CAN do it..or you CAN'T

it's up to his determination to keep his promise to you..

BUSY. is. an. excuse.

EVERYONE is busy.

in Singapore itself..he barely meets you

now moved to Malaysia..now how?

and waiting..how long can you wait indefinitely for him to decide that he wants to be in a proper r/s when he keeps calling for these "no-contact break"..????????????????

it's the time of the year for reflections!

2007 has been a really great year for me..I have a lot to be thankful for..

- graduated yay! my grades are not helluva fantastic but..alright..they're average n I'm happy
- met great people! Nana, Poca, SY, Jas, Isaac, Monica, Amin!
- maintain close relationships with my frens! u're free to shoot me if I'm wrong =P *looks at WJ
- wonderful grandparents
- delightful bunny
- my brother, to think I used to hate him when I was in pri school..we used to have fights which ended in him lying immobile on the floor n me looking over n tinking "oh shit have I killed him?"
- had a great holiday in Phuket! the previous time I actually enjoyed a hol b4 tat was never..ahaha..
- my current classes, they're manageable and I'm glad for the opportunity to study n there's NooRoo!
- my bf of cos!

if I've said tis once I've said tis a million times! I'm SO BLESSED AND LUCKY! everyone is so good to me n YAY I love you all =D





if u tell me I'm boring, I will laugh at you.
I am happy with my life, I don't do anything silly, especially nothing tat I will regret, so wad's wrong with tat?
hehe. I enjoy reading n spending quiet time with the ones I love. open ur eyes wide n READ. the word is..ENJOY
seeing my loved ones happy makes me feel warm n fuzzy from the tips of my fingers all the way to my toes u dingaling.
so nth gives u the right to say tat I'm boring just becos I'm not like u.
u mean I have to be like u? everyone's different wad -_-
I didn't criticize ur hobbies..

it's not tat I object to having fun or anything..
sometimes I'm also tempted..to not tink so much..do some silly things just have fun..enjoy myself..worry later..
but everything has it's consequences n I dun wanna hurt myself n anyone..
I'm old enough to show a sense of responsibility..
so...............a little restraint is never hurt I guess
it's smth tat I learnt along the way to stop myself from getting into trouble.
I want a beautiful future! I won't do anything stupid to stop me from getting there!


2008 (:

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BUSY. is not an excuse
TRY to meet is a lousy line
waiting indefinitely is not an answer
"no-contact breaks" are absolute nonsense
MOVING TO ANOTHER COUNTRY without even discussing it with you just shows exactly how much you mean to him doesn't it?

I think, it was thoughtless and plain selfish to not have considered your feelings. who wouldn't be upset?



LOVE is an easy thing to say alright..actions are another issue altogether



and a r/s only works when both parties really put in effort to stick together thick and thin
he is missing 90% of the time.

-.-

problems again. HAIYO....I know u have ur own difficulties..but..I can't deny tat she has a point as well..it's been 2 years? who wouldn't get angry?


look. everyone comes n tell me smth. how am I supposed to handle everything? zzz..den I tell who?



patience n understanding..
but..dun take advantage of it why don't u?
pffft.
humans are just WEIRD.
they know when smth's good for them but they just gotta screw it up..
bleah.

w00t!

I've been feeling rather cranky tis few days..n I dun tink I've been behaving like myself..been feeling down though I've been trying not to let it show....just had some issues tat I haven't sorted out in my head..

oh well!

but I'm ok after typing it out..therapeutic! should have done tis sooner.. =P

no more emotional baggage to carry over to 2008 pls!

A NEW YEAR, A NEW BEGINNING

hope everyone has a brilliant Xmas n a groovy New Year!

omg Muffin royally MISBEHAVED today..

he peed thrice in half an hour..zzz....first time..he peed on the paper I was reading..ok so he's paper trained..my fault for leaving it on the ground..BUT..he stood on the paper..n positioned his backside out of it -_- omg....so nothing landed on it..ok when I saw tat happen I actually laughed..

2nd time..I thought oh heck..maybe he's really urgent..I still smiled at him n patted his head..

3rd time..I was so tempted to take up bowling..

n THEN he decided to jump on my shoulder..he MISSED..landed on my arm..n now..it looks as if I'm some emo wrist slashing person..!!!!!!!!



tis is a 10 min convo with Eddy..we're on totally different channels it's hilarious..

e_edd says:
christmas what will you be doing?

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
AHAHA

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
i know where this is going

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
i got this from liz already

omg funny..

e_edd says:
lol

e_edd says:
and i suppose u prefer partying

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
eh not really

e_edd says:
oh?

e_edd says:
this part is unexpected

e_edd says:
i thought you're a party girl

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
=.= ......

e_edd says:
wild

e_edd says:
uncaged

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
wad rubbish

e_edd says:
ok ok... so i'm wrong

e_edd says:
u and wanjun looked like club partners

e_edd says:
honest, don't hit me

WJ!! u can kill Eddy too!

n den tis part got too weird for me to comprehend..

e_edd says:
by its light, we see all things else

e_edd says:
oh?

e_edd says:
i'm not from city harvest u know

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
ok now tt's new

e_edd says:
i hail from a humble local church of 500-600

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
eddy -_-

e_edd says:
yeah

e_edd says:
it's humble compared else where

e_edd says:
but it's a great church that loves God

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
._.

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
enuff with the essay

e_edd says:
u've been with ur boyfriend, coming to a year now right

e_edd says:
still sweet as honey?

e_edd says:
enchantment hasn't lost its charm?

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
oh my goodness

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
why do u talk like that!

ENCHANTMENT HASN'T LOST IT CHARM???? ROFL.

e_edd says:
huh?

e_edd says:
i talk like that one le

e_edd says:
so I thought there has to be at least some enchantment before a relationship goes further right?

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
uhhhhhhhhhh

e_edd says:
is it too obvious?

e_edd says:
cos' I'm confused now

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
wad is too obvious eddy???

e_edd says:
hmmm...

e_edd says:
wrong frequencies man

//feL* finish line of oblivion says:
it's just..i've nv seen anyone talk lidat on msn

or in person either for tat matter..but I didn't say it..

e_edd says:
anything you might need prayers about

e_edd says:
i'll be happy to just pray : D

OH MY. HE DOESN'T BELONG IN SINGAPORE. he's so laid back n everything I tink he should be a sheep farmer in NZ.



BED TIME BYE!

next month..I shall get myself a new computer game! n I want either the watch or necklace from juicy couture! black n gold one..so pretty!


ohhhhh..after reading Jas' blog..I suddenly wanna go theme park!! wanna sit on those rollercoaster rides n stuff..I like! been such a long time since I last went..

=(




I always thought I speak PLAIN ENGLISH. free of flowery words n bombastic language. TSK. I nv knew my english was so hard to understand. how ELSE do u want me to state it? -_-" omg I might puke blood soon lei.

YAY! finally today I have some time to mess around!

I'm feeling super drained..

class was at the National Library today..

free time..just had to sign in..den we could do our research..MONICA..tat girl..zzz left within a few mins..haha..Nurul n I grabbed a couple of books each..u should have seen my face..I couldn't lift my pile of books..even when I exerted all my strength..my face turned red I tink..so funny..we're so unglam..

we left around 4+..went to collect smth from Jess..she rushed out halfway thru her mahjong session..I dinno she could play mahjong!

went to Far East to collect my dress after soooooo long..

came home..n OVERATE -_-"

bleah..


I wanna buy Kenzo flower n the Champagne n strawberries body splash!! so random..

eek..time to do work again ta!



OK I THOUGHT OF MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

I WILL STOP CUTTING MY HAIR!

=(

I didn't sleep properly last night..now I can't turn my neck! eeeeeeeeeek so pain..haha

my room light was flickering..I asked my dad to fix it..n fix it he did..it's not working now..so I'm sitting in the dark..glam ^^V

I started disk fragmenter for ages already! it's still not done!

PIMPLE..WALAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alas!!! the planets must be in some kinda weird alignment today..

my brother walked into my room yesterday night..

"I met him just now..he's looking for you..he said..please tell your sister"





(:

24/10/03

I don't think so. I made a mistake. But I learnt from it and I won't repeat it. I made a promise to myself that day, and I WILL NOT FAIL MYSELF!

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Muffin miscalculated..while trying to jump onto my lap..he almost fell..he was flailing his hind legs in the air..so I caught him n hugged him tightly to me..DARN..I have so many scratches on my arms n legs now where he landed....BOO

I wanna eat macaroni!

I tink I should go to bed..bye!

Nurul must have been a snail in hr previous life

omg I thought I was slow..but she actually makes me seem pretty fast..aha

=D

she's so gonna kill me when she sees this..

I'm waiting for the woman to send me her essay so I can print it..



so far..I've managed to decide wad to wear..walk around my room..pack my bag..walk around my room..argue with her tat blue is nicer than grey..n walk around my room..blog..n I still dun have her essay..haiyo..

NUUUUUUUUU-ROOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!



aye I went shopping with Jessalyn today..SO FUN! it's fun becos I managed to convince her to buy many things..she looked as if she was running away from home or smth..ahaha.. =P while I only bought ONE item..HEE..if I shop with WJ we'll go back with the same amount of stuff..lol

holiday mood!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE

I told Nurul on 1st Dec tat I felt like fainting..

n the feeling hasn't gone away since..

I thought it was maybe from the lack of slp..so I've been slping n slping..more than I've ever slept in my life..but I still feel dizzy n headachey EVERYDAY since then..it's scaring me! my head feels weird..I can't focus..as if I'm stuck in some parallel universe..WHY AH?? I've been feeling sick for ELEVEN days..but I'm fine lei..I dun have fever..no flu or anything..?????????? WHY?






I caught 30 Days of Night n Enchanted in the past week! I enjoyed both movies.. =D I love zombie movies..no idea why..n Enchanted was HAPPIFYING..so nice so nice Jess n I were giggling away thru the show..WHEE!

I just received my timetable though..sucks..I hate school on Saturdays..there's 3 of them darn..especially when they're in the late afternoon..wad kinda timing is tis la..SPOILER!