=(

i've got a load on my mind now, i feel so extremely tired.

can't wait for 2010, this year has been really really bad.

i don't really feel very festive right now, can't really enjoy the festive season! nonetheless..forgive me for being such a wet blanket..have a good weekend! (:

hi! how was everyone's xmas? i had fun! many gatherings..ate a lot..fat already =/

i had super sore eyes the day after..like red red..recovering now after visiting an eye doctor yesterday..checkup again in 2 weeks! meanwhile i can't look at the comp too much..

happy new year in advance! (:

hi!

if u're seeing this, then do support k!

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christmas collection!

thanks!

MAKE IT HAPPEN

=D so happy!

thank you.



on another note, i'm broke! i was looking at modparade just now and eyeballing some items, but it took like all of my willpower to say NO, i shan't buy. so proud of myself. i reallyyyy liked the clothes lorh. boo.

hehe. boy i need to be rich! i still owe osacar her 21st bday present. =/

can't wait for all my purchases to arrive. why is it taking so long!

need to jobhunt soon, but i keep procrastinating. darn! any openings, anyone?

eeeek! i saw this lovely sequinned tank dress on some taiwan spree and it's so cheap! $21! i wanted to happily order, however a check with my measuring tape shows that i will never be able to fit in it as the ptp is too big =((((((( SO SAD! and the one at mphosis is retailing for $73! how cannnnnnnn..boo..

it's been ages since we updated the blogshop..yes, it's time for me to go do the layouts..this time there's one of my recent craze..hehe..leopard prints! took one for myself =P

not the most brilliant pic but my hair looks funny in the others so no!

it's my cousin's wedding tmr! gotta turn in early..ta!

TEAM VAMPIRE!

of course, i'm on cullen's side!! not just because of edward la, but i generally like vampire stories..so romantic! hehe..and i think they're just so sexy, sleek and broody and everything =D while the werewolves are just..buff..

i really do wish i'm a vampire now! swoon!

i had BK with the girls just now, i can't believe it! cos i'm not a fan of fast food. eeps.

sorry i couldn't meet sarah today though, haven't seen her in years? meetup soon k!

new shopping centre open in orchard! clothes clothes and more clothes! i wanna go mphosis to look at clothes! i have just caught on some sequins craze, ahaha. it really is fun to be a girlie girl and be all fluffy sometimes....hee..

SEQUINS! shall go hunting for such stuff soon. yay!

OBSESSION

DIE! i seem to have picked up a habit that i can't seem to quit!

i mean i never used to look at clothes so much, of course i did la, i'm a girl what, haha, just like how guys stare at boobs, girls stare at clothes heh..but it's turning into some kind of obsession! goodness me! everyday i just surf the web and stare and stare at clothes

and i keep looking at jackets, cardigans and blazers recently! just what is wrong with me! they're all so gorgeous but so pricey! i really like the way they look but i wouldn't wear them normally, so NO, cannot buy!

must. stop. eyeballing.

shucks. i have been too lazy to blog about what i've been doing lately.

maybe i should take pictures of my new clothes instead. that would take up like..5 entire posts..hehe..clothes make me happy!

but, my camera kinda sucks. so pics don't look that fantastical.

oh well. time to clean the cage. again. heh. that's my life.

i like this pic of me! but can see my freckles =(

i have decided, i wanna go for treatment to laser them off! or they'll become age spots when i'm older, no i don't want that!

but my mom went for 1 session and she said it hurt a bit..hmmmm..how how?

$$$.. =/

i just received my patchwork cropped top from ohsofickle! it's so pretty! yay..

been too lazy to do anything.. =(

school's been out for about 3 weeks..I'm very scared of what the future holds, wish I could be a student forever..really worried about it

haha..silly thoughts..

but these 2 munchkins have been keeping me busy..

they are now fast friends and get into mischief together -_- but cute! they won't keep still long enough for me to capture a decent picture..but cupcake is the one on the step..his 2nd time out of the house..aha..muffin is just watching him..

been too lazy to do anything.. =(

school's been out for about 3 weeks..I'm very scared of what the future holds, wish I could be a student forever..

haha..silly thoughts..

don't know how to describe what i'm feeling.

have some pics from the last 2-3 weeks, update again soon, when i don't feel so stoned.

rabbits have been keeping me really busy. muffin is getting very territorial, and cupcake is growing exponentially. muffin's been trying to show him who's boss. he sprayed pee on me yesterday all of a sudden, i got a shock -_-

owner is his, yes yes. silly boys.

... ... ... ... ...

feel so dizzy.

why. WHY? can't i just have some peace and quiet

蔡鍔與小鳳仙

i'm super hooked to this show! 蔡鍔與小鳳仙 - In The Chamber of Bliss

i'm a fan of period dramas..n this one is just so.........addictive..there's like something magical about it..

so beautiful! very touching..i cried like shit..and i love the theme song too!

傷愛一生

花火終散開　田地都取替海
玫瑰　縱會枯萎也願栽
假使感痛哀　無甚麼不變改
還剩我　永遠都不會離開

如果我　無止境的等與待　不放開
還換到　每縷青絲變白　我只敢說活該
從　無止境的傷與害　喜變哀
其實我　看痛苦只當塵埃　以我一生證實愛


sad..sad..so sweet! watch it if you can! but everytime I watch such shows I get super anti-japanese..bleah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PddTSlnpXSA

whoaaa! just listen to her voice............such a tearjerker..niceeeee

why are you so easily influenced by other people and your stupid auntie friends who can't keep their mouths shut?

are their kids very successful? hello, they are only in primary school. so what gives them the right to come and tell me what I should be doing?

and you, I can't understand why you're always finding fault with me. don't work, complain. work, also complain.

fuck. why can't you be satisfied. like I said over the phone, you just have an itchy mouth, just looking for something to say. MAD. I try my best to get along with you but sometimes, I dislike you so much. you've never had a kind word for me or a word of encouragement. all these years. never. it sucks to be your kid. i hate to see your number flashing on my phone.

i dunno why but i like this dress alot! I bought it from Victoria's Secret in US! (:


whee! when my new haircut was still nice..it's getting messy already

more bunny pics..


lol..


here's my boy sleeping! isn't he cute!


Simon says -_-


(:

think i've blogged enough for the day! bye!

thanks jas, isaac n sy for your present! thanks for sending me home too =D

here's pics from monday! i was feeling kinda sick that day..didn't really have voice but went k anyway! glad we went though..i had fun! though sam n ling had some drama =P


as u can see, ling is having loads of fun..sam looks as if she's trying her best to ignore her..lol..

they surprised me with strawberry cake! it was nice..i finished the whole thing..


happy!






yes, we look like pigs..but we could buy our own food in!


^^V


thanks to the 2 lovely girls! love you!

my birthday isn't even here yet but everyone's been very sweet to me! (:

thanks all! for ktv, dim sum, gifts, ice-cream and all the treats! love you all..october's been a month of birthdays and more birthdays!

been very lazy to transfer photos..

yay!

graduation is in approximately 12 hours time!

i'm nervous! wad if i look like shit! wad if i get a pimple -_- or worse still..wad if my hat drops! ahha..

oh i got a haircut..back with pics next time?

ta!

MOONCAKE OVERDOSE

just because i opened my big mouth, everyone has been giving me mooncake! whenever i'm at home, i've been having mooncakes for breakfast, lunch and dinner, but they don't seem to be finishing!!!

AHHHHHHHHH! i am now scared of mooncake help me

i just realised that it's been about 2 months since i went for my facial, but i'm too lazy to book my appointment -_-

i also think it's time for a haircut. scary!

it's the middle of the day and i feel sleepy.

aiyo.

............

HELLO OCTOBER!

my blog is so boring! it's either about my grouses or about my rabbits..

humph!

maybe i could blog about my purchases..haha..then i'll have lots to blog about..i shop so much online! my wardrobe is really maxed out..

wedding lunch to attend later on! so funny ah on a thursday afternoon..mom can't make it so she sent me in her place..i feel so lazy to go out..the weather's just terrible i have constant headaches from the heat..

i saw a cute toy poodle yesterday! it looked like a stuffed toy..and it was super hyper..so nice..wish i had one..but then again..i like many kinds of dogs -_- hehe..and i saw a french bulldog today! i saw it from the back..super funny..the back view/rump/backside HAHA looked like a pig..i was giggling away really hard..

okok..blog again another time! i wanna shop shop shop! (: october's gonna be a busy month! birthdays galore..i feel for my pocket already..

HOT & COLD

i'm feeling awful.

i dunno what i'm allergic to but i've been sneezing my nose away for about 3 days, and i feel hot and cold at the same time.

i have watery eyes and a headache. what could it be?

help me! boo

finally..this module is over! i was so shagged..the moment i reached home i collapsed on the couch around 4 until my mom came home..she called n called me but i couldn't wake up..

i was more tired then hungry so ate a scone with butter..

i was supposed to clean the cage..i took out everything then i got lazy

tried to watch tv with my bro..102 dalmations n i fell asleep halfway..could hear my rabbits messing up the balcony but still couldn't get mysef to move..

11 pm. my parents tried to wake me

12 am. my mom told me the balcony was in a royal mess

2 am. i suddenly woke up.

naughty bunnies!! some pics i took of them on....sat?? it took me very long to just to snap a few pics..i still don't have a nice pic of cupcake that i can print out cos he keeps moving..i was crawling all around the floor..




see my silly boy? he sure doesn't look like a rabbit right..hehe


eating muffin's food..after he finished his..super greedy

rabbit nose-to-nose! so cute!

n here's muffin in the house! i told my friends that i bought those mats to teach them how to count..hahaha

now it's cupcake in the house! haha..takes up far lesser space that muffin fat boy! =P muffin needs to lose some weight, the chubby boy

closer look at cupcake..aiyo so cute!

hee (: one last pic of my fave pet

time to catch a nap b4 class later! bye!

SILLY QUESTIONS 101

why is it always the same? to have me call you thinking that it's regarding something important only to find out that you're wasting my hp bill asking the same old silly questions?

1. where are you?
2. why do you have to go out?
3. can't you study at home?

wtf. if i say i'm studying it means that i'm really studying. is that very hard to believe? and what's with the stupid can't you study at home question when i've told you many times some things are called GROUP DISCUSSION. can you just stop it stop it STOP IT i have enough to manage already without having to deal with your nonsense and stupid tantrums whenever you feel like it. DELETE my number off your list why don't you? most mothers are concerned when they're kids are busy but you're totally not la. only know how to scream and shout and ruin my day. it's little wonder why i am starting to hate answering questions of any sort.

pfft.

out with Sam n Ling! it was fun but I couldn't stay long becos of RESEARCH METHODOLOGY! so much homework ee.

but, I got the necklace that I was eyeing for the longest time! Ling was late..AGAIN! so was i but she was later..Sam was shooting daggers at her..whaha..

pastamania..AGAIN!! it seems like we have a lack of creativity or whatsoever becos everytime we go out we'll always have pasta at cine -_- n eat the same thing..

we didn't go n drink coffee!! nooo..i want! n we've been holding off our ice-cream date for the longest time..let's go man!

n Ling's picture of the day or whatever she called it..

love them (:

wad do i do wad do i do???

i'm such a loser sometimes -_-

on another note. school is so tiring! why does it have to start so early!
i can't imagine going to work next time at 8.30 every morning.
brain isn't functioning at that hour.

i was so tired last night i crawled into bed n practically comatosed.

i miss my lil boys already! can't wait to go home n look at them.

MEET CUPCAKE!

whee!



meet my new bunny! he's called CUPCAKE! cos i felt Muffin was lonely and I feel bad whenever I'm not at home.

hope they don't fight though.
they're the same breed and they look alike!
can't wait to see how they interact.

cupcake's still really young. he just learnt how to walk properly it seems. he was dry swimming around the place. he just hopped a bit when he got used to it. he needs to be fed! really fragile n skinny. not like Muffin. cute n chubby. hehe..

LIFE PRIORITIES

i've been trying. really hard, i swear i have.

i always thought, be nice to people and they'll be nice to you.
but sadly 85% of the time that rule doesn't seem to apply.

human beings are scary.

when u're nice to lil kids, they worship you and run to you happily everytime they see you.
when u're nice to lil animals, they adore you and love you unconditionally it's so heartwarming

be nice, and people think you're dumb and easy to bully. moral of the story? some people can't even be compared to animals.

it's really sickening.

why do i always hope and stupidly hope that things will be different? fairytales only happen in children's books.

i get nightmares just thinking about it i don't think i'd be able to forget in this lifetime.

why are some people just so..........

when you sit back at the end of the day do you reflect and sometimes wonder what are you doing? like really, WHAT ARE YOU DOING MAN???? some things are meaningless and just PLAIN MEANINGLESS.

stop doing this to me, i used to be so happy and now i seem to be seriously losing it.

i'll be going away on a short holiday for the next few days, i seem to really need it, have to clear my head.
life sure doesn't seem like a bed of roses now.

why am i so lazy and unmotivated?

when i was alone just now i thought, i told myself when my course started that i was going to work hard, and not waste my grandma's money

but somewhere along the way i just lost steam. i got a frikking C for my previous module. i'm so disgusted with myself. if i tried my best but i'm stupid then i have nothing to say. but i was LAZY and i procrastinated lots.

argh.

no more no more. i'm not going to be lazy this month!

emo emo.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53V9UQra7sk

cuteness overload!

so pretty..I'm thinking of getting Muffin a friend..

should i?

hehe..

hello september! (:

when people say that they're always be there for you,
that's a lie.

i guess part of us know that it's true,
but we always want to hope for the best.

i don't want to hear any of it.
i feel so weary.


but i still can't help but smile whenever i look at my angelfluff boy!
fat and chubby (:

FINE, FINE

all this for fuck?

WHERE'S MY JELLY!

yay!

cookies + chips + ice-cream + shaker fries = happy me!

back to studies eep.

can't wait or this to be over. i want to go out and play!

rollercoaster.

i realised, for many things, i only have myself to blame.

maybe i'm drawn to poison?

phone's wonky, internet's problematic!

hmm i'm off. back on thurs?

bye! sorry in a rush.

it's not that i abandoned my blog, it's just that i have no inspiration and no motivation to blog recently.

bitten by a real lazy bug.

pfft.

topsy turvy!!!

i've got this weird feeling within me.

lesson was so dry. politics. yuck.
but my classmates are great fun. thank god for them!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i'm so frustrated. i didn't ask for it. be sensitive and don't talk about it can???

=(((((((((

i love muffin, he's such a cutiepie!
he has super cute paws....

school on monday. eeps, i'm still lost in transit.
want to go on holidayyy..

going to bishan later, then to meet my classmates for dinner.
they are such fun, can't wait to meet them.

ah, i want to play mahjong....!

okay, i really should go catch some shut-eye. again! cya!

i'm sorry, goodbye.......

CROSSROADS

somehow, I feel that I have reached some kind of crossroad in life, where there are 2 forks leading in completely different directions.
I feel quite lost, and I don't know what to do.

my heart really wants to choose path A, though I guess it might not be the smartest thing to do.
the logical side of me says path B, but the heart has it doubts and whatever I do it is still the emotions outweigh the logic.

how now?
i'm tired of battling with myself, and when such issues are concerned, nobody can help me but myself.

why am i so weak? should i do the right thing? am i being fair to myself? can i turn back time? why does it feel so right? serious, ahhhhhhhhh omg. WHY???

Feliciaaaaaaaa, why are you so selfish?

undo. undo.

minus. minus.

exams are over. FINALLY!

think i really had an awful past 2 months. didn't know what i was thinking.
could barely concentrate on my schoolwork. as a result, i was so unprepared!
first time in my life. boo.
i left a few questions blank on my paper. disgusting bleah.

time to meet the peeps. SAM & BFF! where are you guys!

and oh. i want to blow bubbles! they are so pretty.............

i'm v v v tired. didn't sleep cause i was mugging. going to catch up on lost sleep now.
bye bye!

really? so all along, it was me?

why why WHY is it always like this?

and why are you always so contradictory?



=.=

going crazy.
exam stress.
i've been getting so irritable these few days and i feel so moody.
i'm such a raincloud.
sorry folks..........

don't know what i'm feeling lately.......

times like these when you find out how much you really mean to others.....






oh well.

were you ever just mine and mine alone?





i guess my blog has been really dreary lately. can't be very pleasant to ppl who are reading this.

i'll try to keep my unhappy thoughts away from this space k!

back to studies.....................................

"i didn't lie, i just didn't tell you"

wow.

isn't the general rule of thumb, don't do something if your partner isn't going to like it? or at least just be honest about it?

not do something and hope that the other person doesn't find out. things just don't work that way. whether or not your bf/gf finds out, you shouldn't even do it in the first place.




i hate it, and i feel so cheated.
you make me feel like a damned fool.

my head hurts, eyes hurt urgh.

i just want to be happy.

i try and i try but apparently i'm not nice enough.


other girls are.







sweet. that totally hit me with the force of a slap.
i really don't know. maybe i'm really not a nice person?

hello love (:

it's too late.

some things should have been said earlier, done earlier.

but there wasn't any reassurance. not until it's really too late to change anything.

i'm sorry. if i had a choice i really would have wanted it to last forever.

=(

DON'T GO

sorry i haven't been blogging much lately, so my blog is pretty much boring.
but i haven't been in the best of moods lately.

and lee ling is going off to korea for 2 months today
sam and i are going to see her off.

=(((((

lee lingggg don't go?
we're really going to miss you!

MEMORABLE

so many places, so many memories.
we really shared a lot together.



day 1 without you, i really do feel as if i lost a part of me.

but ultimately, love alone, is not enough.

I'M SORRY

i never wanted to hurt anybody, but i really have no choice, i'm hurting myself inside.
you know me, i'm really soft hearted.

if i could, i rather be the one on the receiving end.
i know sorry just sounds lame.
but, i really really tried my best.

goodbye my love

30
thanks for the memories

IF YOU NEED TO CONTACT ME!

i'm using a prepaid card for the time being and since i can't sms all my friends, here's my number.

it's just a temporary thing!

9 0432 082

lotssssssssa things to update..reallll soon!

LA ppl are coming back. yayyyyy!

QUANDARY

my title says it all.

oh dear me. what now??????

>.<

nghhh. i need to smack myself.

hey folks.

please EMAIL me for the time being because my bill has not been paid.

i'm SO ANGRY.

LOL

part of me says:
my mum said im not supp to meet fel until she goes to the doctor LOL

-_- funny!! haha..

ZIPADEEDOODAH

when i think about everything, life's sooooooooo good!

except the horrid cough which refuses to go away.

and it's not what you think it is.

hehehe.

COLD AIR

ulta is amazing. there's everything in there for bath, makeup, hair etc and their prices are just out of this world.

loreal mascara - buy 1 get 1 free
nyx lipsicks - buy 1 get 1 free
opi nailpolish - buy 2 get 1 free

everything here just seems to follow this general guideline.

i walked in and spent $98! like stocking up on makeup. i bought so many lipsticks! all in different shades of pink, but ah, i'm happy. hehe.

graduation was today, it's what i really call graduation.
the ceremony was nothing i've ever since before in singapore. wait till i get pictures from my friends. really super nice!

wet seal is awesome. i now have many t-shirts. i've been wearing a different one everyday i can't believe it since i seldom wear t-shirts in singapore.

the weather here seems to be affecting our brains though. we've had several dumb moments, which we coin as "teletubby" moments. the things we did and said. ohmygod. really so dumb.

"you think i'm not dumb ah?"

"sneaky sneaky"

"hey wake up! look! BISON!"

"did you hear the secret about butter? don't spread it"

-____-

we played twister last night. my first time playing it! it was so fun. sock was twisting and contorting himself into a pretzel.

i want the pictures. wait till get them pictures! we'll all die from laughing.

BRICKTOWN IN 2 HOURS! yeahhhhhhhhhh...

(:

CLARISONIC

do you know what's a clarisonic?

lol. i didn't either. but my darling roomie was RAVING away about it 2 months ago.

my reaction? the usual. yeah yeah. i mean i was sure it was good but not so fantastic.
HA. so wrong.

that day we went into Sephora, and I she got the salesperson to test it out on a disbelieving me.
he put some water on my hand, and took out the magic Clarisonic device.
2 mins later, I looked at my hand and said.



"WHAT MAGIC IS THIS???????? I WANT!!!"


my god. i'm sold.

it's awesome. i've never made such a quick purchase. S$300+.

totally worth every single cent. i've been using it for the past 3 days, and the results are like.........WOW. i can't even begin to describe it. but my skin looks totally clear and RADIANT now.

i mean i didn't have lots of skin problems before, it was just dull.

but, this brush cleanses like..6 layers of the skin..


and now, my skin really looks so much happier! i've been cutting down on bb cream already.
CLARISONIC! life-saver!


they're not bringing it in to singapore though.

http://www.clarisonic.com/

check it out! MAGIC MAGIC! i absolutely adore it! yay! it's like having a facial everday!

shopping in the states is really INSANE.

everything is so cheap.

shoes cost $10. in their currency, and not those lousy slippers, but really nice ones.

we went to penn square and quail springs mall over the weekend.

i bought bags, shoes, makeup, sweaters, tops, dresses, bikinis, perfume, body mists, accessories and god knows what else.

i bought my very first forever 21 items today. 4 pieces for $36. which is something that can never happen back in singapore. 1 item will probably cost $40 already.

and i loveeeeeeee my new givenchy lipstick. only $27!!!!!!! amazing.

i need to exercise control.

=/

SPRING LIKE WINTER

i'm kinda getting used to how things are like over here,
but there are certain things which i'm sure i will never be able to adapt to even if i stay here till i'm a little old lady

for instance, THE WEATHER

it's mad cold over here and it's SPRING. 11-15 degrees = spring????? spring here is twice as cold as winter in hongkong.

and the locals consider it warm. -_-

my goodness, you should see all of us decked out in layers and shivering away.
the first day i wore slippers out i almost froze my toes off.
and i have cold rash from their weather. cold and dry! my skin looks awful. i'm peeling like an onion. eek.

and of all times, i have cold sores =( again! near my eye area. it hurts like crazy and it makes me very cranky, but i don't really want to dampen anyone's mood so sometimes i just keep quiet and sit in a corner. brr.

but one thing which i'm mighty thankful for is my classmates. they're really sweet and fun and everything. though of course there are a few funny characters, but they make life interesting for us. and naturally, so many people staying together seeing each other's faces for 3 weeks straight, there will definitely be tension and conflict. the way some people behave, you'd think they were born yesterday. luckily my room doesn't have such problems.

i've been eating alot because of the cold. i think i'm growing fat.

my sleeping habits haven't varied. school starts at 9 am, but i can only fall asleep past 3. zzz. the bus driver already waited for me once. oh dear.

i miss my bunny very much.

i haven't watched x-men.

i wish mr koh was around.

i so need a bear hug.




penn square in a few hours! our dallas trip was cancelled due to the swine flu. we're going to shop, then to a baseball game at night.

i miss everyone in singapore! goodnight!

2:06 AM

here's just a few random pics, i grabbed these from my classmate's blog.
i'll blog properly about it when i'm back in singapore?





mighty quaint looking place, i'm staying in 1622!


they all look the same, i still can't find my way back to my room


shoe heaven! everything is laid out nicely and arranged in sizes..and their shoes are so cheap you can just go mad in there..i got a pair of slippers for $5


even walmart is so entertaining. it's just so huge and they have so many varieties of everything. makes Giant look like a lousy neighbourhood grocery store


check out the prices! insane. roomies and i have 5 tubs sitting in the fridge..


i know it looks like a lot of fun but i really wish i could see some sunshine.

i'm really really really so homesick. i have class tmr need to wake up early. but, i miss everybody so much i can't get to sleep............zzzzz...i know i know so pathetic right =/

HELPLESS

you know the feeling when you have so many things to say, but you just can't?

well i'm feeling it right now. and it's not because i don't want to it's just that i happen to be tens of thousands of miles away that's why i have no opportunity to.

i'm feeling all choked up and congested inside. such a helpless feeling.

please mr. fix-it, will you help me?





being happy isn't easy. to think i was so jolly 24 hours ago.
the irony of it all.

=( i'm freaking sad

OFF FOR 3 DONKEY WEEKS!

super long ago picture taken in phuket and it's kinda grainy, but nvm la!

3 weeks n oklahoma, after a superrrrrrrrrrr long flight.
i'm going to miss everyone!
especially you, dear! i wanna go to a beach resort again! i wanna see sunset!

let's see. here's all the people that i'll miss like crazy. actually i figure i'll get super homesick, i really don't like to be separated from friends and family for more than 3 days -_-

i'm going to miss SAM!! i've been troubling her by giving her almost daily afternoon calls =/ but we're going out after her exams. yes sam?
and ling!
let's go ktv!
and bff wj! last week's shopping was fun!
jannah milkshake! brownies!
poca, hope you liked your bday present!
oscar, quick finish your exams and hangout soon!
jazzy, sorry you gotta handle all the photoshop!
did i miss out anyone? haha, don't think so, my list of friends ain't very long
but i think all of us are mighty close!

LOVESSSSSSS!

i just wanna quick go and hurry back to singapore!
got ice-cream and x-men waiting for me!

n MUFFINBOY. omg i miss him so much i want to cry everytime i think of him.
he's so cute i swear! i'd do anything for him!
muffffffinnnnnnnnnnnn must miss me ok wait for me to come back!

AHEM. i'll be back on 18th may. SQ11 ok!!

GRR

why does x-men origins: wolverine only come out when i'm away????????

i think my friends know, i'm a super fan of superhero movies, and x-men is my ultimate favourite!

nooooooooo...............can only watch when i'm back..



anyway, life's been a rollercoaster ride lately
maybe i need to learn to take things more lightly?
i don't know.
3 weeks later!

yesterday's anxiety attack was absolutely horrible. thought i had to check myself into a hospital. couldn't breathe, stomach pain, dizzy!! !!!!!!!!!!!!

i got myself too worked up and agitated. my doctor wanted to kill me.

According to wikipedia:
Panic attacks are very sudden, discrete periods of intense anxiety, fear, stomach problems and discomfort that are associated with a variety of somatic and cognitive symptoms. The onset of these episodes is typically abrupt, and may have no obvious triggers.
Experiencing a panic attack is said to be one of the most intensely frightening, upsetting and uncomfortable experiences of a person's life.

Panic attacks are commonly linked the fear of not being able to escape a bad situation. Many who experience panic attacks feel trapped and unable to free themselves.
The effects of a panic attack vary from person to person. Some, notably first-time sufferers, may call for emergency services. Many who experience a panic attack, mostly for the first time, fear they are having a heart attack or a nervous breakdown.

so, what i need to do now is to calm down, take a deep breath and take things slowly

but i almost panicked again today!
i don't know why but when something doesn't go as expected my brain just can't think of anything positive, i start to panic, i can't breathe and all that nonsense
even for something small, i imagine all kinds of things.
if you know what goes through my brain you'd be amazed. like a drama

while i was looking through my notes just now and i couldn't find the chapter i wanted my heart started POUNDING.
omg since when was i so panicky?
must be nerves.
=(

argh. WAKE UP WAKE UP what am i doing???

at least the paper's tmr, one less thing to stress me up

i never like to speak my mind, leaves me feeling vulnerable
nonetheless i can't even find the words to describe what i'm feeling now
don't know where to begin even.
but that was the most painful line i've ever heard

it doesn't matter, i always hide my feelings anyway





i love you so much,
wish you knew

DISTURBIA?

do u know how i've been feeling lately?

i haven't been sleeping well, been having nightmares
i thought that i've managed to push all these thoughts away
actually i succeeded, but they only came back again recently

2 days ago, there was a stranger camped my floor's staircase landing in the wee hours of the morning
my parents asked him to move but he refused to move away.
my mom called me when she reached the office and told me not to go out

yesterday one of my neighbours whom i've rarely seen and i'm not acquainted with.
omg.
when i was going down the staircase towards my unit he was just leaving.
he walked past me. then. he stopped.
he walked down the staircase slowly. and he stopped again and stood in the corner and watched me.
bloody frightening. and his gaze was that type of. er. wolf watching a sheep?
i could feel his gaze burning. eeps
i ran back to my house and fumbled with the lock.
my brother asked what happened and i told him the neighbour was leering horribly at me.

=(
i'm really scared.
my greatest fear is such unwelcome attention.

PLEASE

why do people think it's alright to tell a skinny person that they're skinny?

is it because you think we won't mind?

i beg to differ. it's as rude as telling a bigger sized person that they're fat.
SAME.

very rude.

my mom likes to keep telling me that i'm skinny.

of course i know that.
what do you think i see when i look in the mirror everyday?
so why keep reiterating that i'm skinny?

you think it doesn't bother me?
if i had a choice don't you think i would prefer to be full-figured instead?

if you say i'm skinny and stop there it's fine.
but over and over again it's NOT. it makes me feel and look like shit and my confidence just drops to below subzero
my mom does that EVERYDAY. "wah that's all bones ALL BONES blah blah"
and my dad will pipe in.
if i really want to be nasty i'd just say by comparison of cos as you're fat.
but i never say that right?

so why can't people be more sensitive?

stop ok please. it's rude and it's very depressing

PAINS OF BEING FEMALE!!

my cramps this time round are killing me!!!

i feel so lethargic. and i slept for a good 12 hours! not that i'm tired, but i just couldn't get out of bed as my back really hurts!

yesterday and today!

and i stayed up late to study yesterday and guess what!
mom kept calling me in the wee hours of the morning while i was sleeping over itty bitty stuff.

8.50 am i received an sms -- "bring me go prawning"
9 am received a call -- "help your brother with his ns registration"
11 am another call -- "shall i buy egg tarts?"

AIYO MY MOM! but sometimes it's quite cute la..haha..

ah cramps cramps! i need a hug i want my bf =(

HEADACHE

have you met people you can't communicate with?
my dad is one of them.
seriously, CAN'T talk to him.
because no matter what i say to him, i have no idea why he can't listen, he will twist my words around so that it becomes a completely different thing, and then he'll get all huffy over it. LIKE A WOMAN.
it is damn irritating.
i give up really. and he's so sensitive. when i absolutely DID NOT criticise him, he says i did.
so frustrating.
it's so tiring i wishhhhhhhhh i didn't come home just now.

forget it, don't want to think about unhappy stuff.

caught the shinjuku incident over the weekend. i thought it was pretty nice!
rather action packed with funny moments and sad parts. i didn't think any part of the movie was boring. nice! though i squirmed through certain portions. too gross and unexpected! kinda things i'd expect from SAW. bf found it funny. so bad!

had steamboat at punggol marina cos it was his mom's bday. ah. MY mom has been dying to go there as she wants to go prawning! she's been nagging at me. the first thing she said when i stepped through the door today was PRAWNING! she wanted to go this coming sat but too bad! it's jazzy's 21st! my goodness we've been eating so much steamboat! everytime i just eat a lot of pork and golden mushrooms. i'm going to grow fat!

i was a royal loser again in mahjong yesterday! why!!

i want to eat happy food! like a mudpie! i polished off a whole box of strawberries today right after my lunch. i have a stomachache now =x

shall go rest. spent almost the whole night watching gem of life! exciting!

NO TO LETTUCE!

ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

i just caught my mom trying to feed lettuce to muffin!

murder!!!!!

i wonder what she's been feeding him whenever i'm not around.
i already told her mny many times that rabbits can't at lettuce!
"orh orh orh" but still like that!

MUSINGS

my rabbit is so naughty!
the moment i open the cage door. ZOOM! and he disappears.
i can only manage to turn my head and see his tail fading into some distant corner.
then he'll randomly appear when i least expect it to surprise me and can't be found when i'm looking for him.
haiyo!
love him to bits! even the veggie sellers at the market also know him already. i've been waving his pic in front of their faces. haha!

it's always been my belief that smart people talk less and listen more.
actually i think it's quite true in many cases but of course there are exceptions. like lawyers.
ah what am i saying. i know what i want to say but i can't seem to describe it!
anyway. i have no idea why some idiots say everything on their blogs and act so upset and victimised when others read it.
come on, don't be stupid.
don't want people to know then why put it on your blog?

i was in town with jas yesterday. amazing! i only spent $10.
don't know why but i really don't feel like spending money on clothes.
everything everywhere is the same! boring.
but i think i need clothes. always wearing the same thing. bleah.
my skin is awful. i want to go for facial! and i want to fix my hair. but no time and no money!

tried studying a bit just now. ah. read 1 paragraph walk around the house once.
how to finish all the chapters?

it's april already. i feel more depressed with each passing day.
don't want to go don't want to go don't want to pack!!

and yes, april fools' day has to be the most annoying thing ever!
i never know whether to take things seriously on this day.
jas told me that she twisted her arm very badly -_-
i was telling her to wake her whole family etc and i believed it for a whole hour before she finally "HAHA APRIL FOOLS'" me
!!!

CAN'T REALLY REMEMBER!

as the title says, i can't really remember what i did.

just that i met up with sam and ling after not seeing each other for quite a while!
we had lots of fun talking and talking. sam ate like a hungry ghost!!! ramen ten, had my fave scallop ramen! i still think ajisen's better! =P

we went shopping after that! it was horrible. i bought 2 pairs of shoes. think ling did too.
she passed me my stuff from the koream spree. so pretty! can't wait for the cape blanket.





LOL. sam. haha!
the noob brought her camera with battery almost dead. no choice. took using my hp cam.
not too bad la! but we were in a hurry.

had dinner with them at pastamania (AGAIN)
chicken sausage pasta -_- thrice in 2 weeks! didn't finish my food.
she went for her lessons while ling went home. havoc! she had to go home to get ready for ladies' night! hor hor ling!
i went to meet bf for dinner. AGAIN! went to soup kitchen where i had.......scallop soup? guess i'm lacking in creativity. always eating the same things. hehe.

played mahjong on sat and i royally lost. i only won twice that night. imagine how much i lost! boo.
but it's fun la.

i went to the eye doctor. finally! waited for ages. $85! so expensive!
same old story. allergy. sensitivity. bleah. not fair!

i love subway cookies!

oh. show you muffin's tail. haha. sounds very silly but i think he has a very cute tail! =/
i showed my classmates and they were like -____- haha.


bobtail!


do i look like muffin? everyone says so O_O
anyway my hair's a really funny colour ain't it? i dyed it black but it keeps fading to this.
???????

RAIN CLOUDS

i have many things to blog about, but i feel like eeyore today.





but he's cute isn't he?

i need to think more optimistically. i'll be back in a while!

TUBEE COLLECTION 16!

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LAST DAY OF LECTURE

later's the last lecture for behavioural science. yippee!
the teacher's very nice though. will miss her!
it's just that 8.30 am classes are a killer.

i should be sleeping now! seeing sam and ling tomorrow. yayness.

hope to launch another collection this week. collection 16!
so i'll be busy photoshopping for the next few days!

tired eyes! byebye!

DRAINED

school is draining my energy!

this module is really tiring! i have to really focus in class to catch everything the teacher is saying. also, because our lessons are so compact, a lot of information is squeezed into each session.
!!!
i feel like a wrung sponge after each class.

so many things i haven't done.
O_O
embassy on thursday, still have documents to prepare!

help help.

BYE LUCKY

emo post.

lucky passed away =(

so sad. couldn't help crying.

he's the guinea pig that terence tay gave me when i was around 17-18.

actually he gave me 2. i kept lucky's sis while gramps kept lucky.

she didn't have a name as i kept affectionately calling her "ah girl"

she was so cute she could whistle and whistled very loudly everytime i came home to greet me.

but sadly as much as i loved her i was an irresponsible owner and she fell sick and died.

i was so sad that day and resolved never to keep a pet again unless i really can be a very good owner.

at least lucky was fortunate. he died of old age. guinea pigs have a life span of around 5.5 years.

i think he had a good life as gramps loved him a lot!

super obedient, he could shake hands, follow simple instructions and everything.

he's good friends with a black rabbit that i gave my gramps. they shared a cage for 4 years?

now the black rabbit's super sad and she's not eating.

boo la. i hate goodbyes.

bye lucky dear. hope you're in better place.

his passing made me super anxious and i immediately wanted to see muffin and give him a big hug.

i can't imagine if muffin leaves me =(((((((((

CANNOT IMAGINE.

life without my darling rabbit.

wah i better stop thinking or i will start howling.

so i came home and decided to spend quality time with muffin.

it's been about a week since i last spend good time with him.

i watched him race around just now, hugged him, played with him, cleaned his cage, tickled his ears, powdered him, brushed his fur, laughed at his antics.

he makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

and in return?

he gave me the nicest hug ever. he usually clings to my leg but today was different.

FIRST TIME! he hugged my leg, placed his chin and one paw on my knee, and closed his eyes!

ohmygod he stayed that way for 10 mins while i stroked his fur!

super cute! i swear my heart did somersaults. he's so affectionate!

i didn't want to move him or i would have taken a picture.

AHHHHHH!

he's such a dear!

i know it might sound silly but it's really moments like that which makes me feel that all the hard effort spent looking after him is worth it!

i mean as a pet owner, it really is rewarding when your pet loves you and trusts you back!

(:

"Rabbits dance. When Fuzzy is in a binky mood, she shakes her head a lot. If we jump up in the air doing the human equivalent of a binky, Fuzzy will binky with at exactly the same time. When we do this a couple of times in a row, it looks as though we are dancing together. Another rabbit dance is the dance of love. Basically the rabbit runs round and round you or another bunny pal. This is a bunny expression of love. This is often accompanied by affectionate nips. What your bunny doesn't realise is that bunny nips hurt!"

whoo!! muffin loves me! yay hehe! i was wondering why he NIAPS me sometimes. not painful but very sudden i get startled. thought he was trying to get a taste. and he binky dances A LOT. happy bunny! =D

i've never smacked muffin but i'm ashamed to say that i raised my voice at him once. oops.

so i don't believe that punishment is a good way to get pets to obey you and i hate to see people mistreating their pets. i saw a woman smacking her dog HARD on the head today.

=( no please. they are so intelligent. a stern reprimand or gentle swat on the rump will do.

if you own pets, please shower them with love and care because they do have feelings too.

don't give pets as presents if you're not sure if the receiver will look after them well.

i hate the nonsense pet shops are having. spend enough and get a hamster free????????

...........

muffin muffin muffin!

argh.

i really can't bear to leave for 3 weeks! even 3 days is a challenge.

stupid residency.

then.

now!

SCREWY TUESDAYS, SLEEPY WEDNESDAYS

my tuesday started out real baddddd.
first, i waited super long for the bus. then i couldn't get on two buses as it was too crowded. i decided that it was too late already. CLASS QUIZ! cannot be late. so i walked to the station.

when i reached dhoby gaut. it was pouring! and i didn't have an umbrella! many people were standing there looking at the sky in dismay.
but i couldn't afford to wait! so i decided to brave the rain.
pfft.
a bus zoomed past and splashed water all over me! idiot bus driver! all over my dress! the only thing i can say is i'm thankful i was wearing black -_-
really felt like crying!
went into class dripping wet and looking like an absolute grouch. who wouldn't right! imagine. just bathed and everything. then soaked in yucky water from the road. bleah.
and i wrote nonsense for the quiz. gibberish.

sam came to meet me after class. we walked around for a short while before going to look for lee ling. supposed to meet for the day! but she had project meeting so we went to meet her during her lunch break first.
we ate at pastamania! i managed to finish my food! realised that i haven't seen both of them for quite a while. we yakked and yakked!
we went to taka and wisma. both of them bought the hakubi tablets, since i said i tried eating those and i really see results. fair skin! i got myself some eyelash comb -_-", and an umbrella!!!! important! ling had to go back to her meeting so sam and i continued shopping!
she got herself a pair of shorts from pull and bear while i got some basics from cotton on. whee!
indulged in our favourite pastime after that. slacking over caramel frappe. haha! i only seem to do that with her.

sat until she declared she WANTED to buy something from watsons! so we went there and got stuck there for very long as she was interested in everything! she finally settled for a lipstick in one of my favourite colours! yay. ling came back later on to have dinner with sam but i left soon to meet my bf. i was late! oops.

mom's on leave today and she kept calling me during class. i thought it was something urgent. turns out, she wanted to go for tea. took a train back and met her at tampines mall. i didn't know that she dated her friend! my god. if not i wouldn't have agreed. 2 aunties shopping. plus her friend's daughter! they're nice but i was actually real tired. my textbook is huge and super heavy. i tore it up into its chapters already. no way i'm carrying the whole thing again! killer.

her friend's jeanie! she sat next to me in scb. her daughter is only 10! and very tall. bigger sized than me too oh dear.

we went to pu tien to eat. so embarrassing. they both rushed into the restaurant and went to queue and took lots of food. you know la, the typical auntie style. i kept telling my mom to relax. haiyo. ate until i'm so full now. can barely think.

need to go work on my memo and get my visa done now. very troublesome affair! don't like to fill in documents! got to get going!

ice-cream date soon ok! =D

HOME!

i'm home today! haven't been back home for a while.

went jas' place to take pics on thursday. but! her mom forgot and took the camera. so we spent our day doing some other stuff instead. stayed over at bf's house and played mahjong!
went back to her place again on friday. we finished our stuff. snacked. i ate up 3/4 of the sweets in her house. had dinner. left close to 9. reached home at 10.
bf called me when i reached home! decided to go for supper. came to fetch me with his sis. she saw muffin for the first time! he was so cute that day. hehe. in fact he's cute everyday. whee.

we spent saturday slacking. we went to exchange ps3 games. got street fighter iv! so fun. but i keep losing =( but fun fun! must play more. gem of life! i'm at episode 38. so nice! soccer was disgusting that day. pfft.

went IT show yesterday as i initially wanted to change to singnet. but it was so crowded and i eventually changed my mind. i bought 2 pairs of jeans from topshop! yay finally. $162. not too bad right? but poor guy waited and waited as i kept trying. whaha.

class started again today! super early 8.30 yikes. was having difficulty staying awake when the lecturer played a video in class. always happens. i stone during videos.

went daiso after that to get myself a notebook! yay now i have a pretty notebook for $2. hehe.

meeting sam and ling tomorrow! yay haven't seen them for a while. let's have coffee! =D

okay i have many many things to do i better go get started! byebyeeeeeee (:

DAY OUT AT BUGIS

went to bugis today after a very very long absence! with jas and sy. haven't met her for so long! since dec or jan i think.
but that place seems to have lost its appeal already, ever since i discovered online shopping!
easier, more convenient, not hot, no squeeze too!
walked around a bit and settled for an early dinner at miss clarity cafe as all of us were real hungry.
we all had the set menu for $15.80 which is very worth it. ate until we were bursting!

first came the appetizer which was real strange. blended peas, tomatoes and onions in a shot glass. the top part was the peas, which was a funny green while the bottom was the tomatoes and onions, which was a funny orange too. sy said that it looked like playdough. tasted a bit weird, but not too bad. jas had a harder time haha, she had to wash it down with water.

soup of the day was carrot! yummy, sweet! i like carrots (:

i had fish cordon bleu, jas had chicken cordon bleu while sy had chicken dunno-what ballotine. i couldn't finish! quite full from the soup. but i still managed to eat up all the ice-cream. i love desserts! i'm craving for mango sago now.

went back to bugis junction to walk around. sy bought nail polish from face shop! i refrained from buying. amazing. i guess cause i still have stuff from skin food spree which hasn't arrived! can't wait.

got to take pics for the blogshop tomorrow. shall turn in soon! or i'll be late and she'll kill me. hehe.

goodnight! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUFFIN!

=D HELLO! very happy today.

it's muffin's birthday tomorrow! 11th March. i went shopping just now to buy him some treats.
got him vitakraft dream - contains pears, apples and grapes! sounds nice right? hope he'll like it. got him some dried strawberries too. pet items are so expensive in singapore! but he deserves to be pampered (:

can't believe he's been with me for 2 years already! bf gave him to me when he was just 3 weeks old. i love muffin so much! but of course i love bf more hehe.

sorry i've been very excited about his birthday -_- as silly as it sounds, so i've been talking about it nonstop lately. my family decided to chip in as well. my mom bought him some quite a bit of food and hay!


the strawberries look and smell yummy! i'm a fan of strawberries myself. hee.


inspecting his food.



looking so cute right? i never get tired of taking his pics. but it's not easy because he can't keep still.


wanted to take more pics with him but failed! i was crawling about on the floor for 15 mins. only managed to take one! yet it's a bit blur as he moved.

and how was everyone's weekend! i played mahjong and lost money. lol. went towning and caught kung fu chefs as well. been a while since i last caught a movie! orange julius' butter popcorn is tasteless! caramel is much better. had ben and jerry's too! my fave flavours are chocolate chip cookie dough and cherry garcia! i'm craving it though i just ate it yesterday. oh i've been glued to vcds as well. the gem of life! i'm only at episode 31. so exciting! can't wait to continue watching.

ok off to do some other stuff! school's starting. need to catch up with friends too! i haven't gone out with my friends for ages and ages. but i'm quite broke!! ok update again alright! (:

ZONKED OUT

i had such a long long long day today.
i'm so tired!

went supplier with jas just now.
without knowing it, time just flew past!
but the roads were super dusty, my eyes are kind of dry and irritated now.

we got super carried away at the shops just now.
she spent quite a bit!!!!!!!

came home and both of us are still looking at the blogshop stuff.
hopefully the biz will get better and better! it's still quite mini at this stage, haha.

i just finished cleaning the cage and it's 2 plus! the dumb animal peed on my leg! super naughty.
what to do all my fault i spoil him too much. grrrrrr. i don't even scold him so i can only blame myself bleah.
they always say love makes people do stupid things. i agree. i do stupid things for my animal also. my lovely little boy is turning 2 years old on March 11th! can't believe he's been with me for 2 years. so quick! he's brought me quite a lot of joy (: gonna buy him some nice food!

anyway, weekend's here!
have a smashing weekend everybody!
hope i can catch a movie soon, i wanna watch marley and me! i love dogs! but !!!!!!! i'm so pissed. i just read a review. GOT ENDING! ahhhhhh spoiler! darn.

TO SHOP OR NOT?

i feel like buying a corset! i was just stuck at a gorgeous web but they are crazy expensive!

wanted to buy a floral dress too! i just love florals. argh. what an obsession!

=(

how how how?

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HONG KONG DAY 3

i know it's super long ago! but anyhow anyway,

since it was vday, we decided to not have such a heavy day, which eventually turned out to be super tiring also ._.
decided to dress up a little! because i never do in singapore, and i took so long to get ready bf went to the lobby to wait for me.
i dressed like a southpark character! i finally wore my black dress which i got from scarletroom, jacket, shoes and stockings.


part of the reason why i was late. HAHA. oops.

i kept saying that i wanted to go avenue of stars, but i kept getting sidetracked by all the shopping centres!
they are awesome, all so big and the size of vivo. imagine if every shopping centre here was like that. but i'd be so broke.
so many things that i wanted to buy!
we went to dfs along the way and we or rather i, got stuck inside there drawing lippies on my hand. i love lipsticks! i really wanted to buy a givenchy one, $39 only! it was such a pretty pastel pink! idiot me. never buy =(

finally! we got to the tsim sha tsui waterfront. so pretty the view! but it was drizzling and i was freezing!


super foggy!


oops. lazy to bring my cam. used hp cam. that's why my pics are like this! darn.

after that we went to take the peak tram! didn't know how to get there so we walked.
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i wanted to die. my feet were so painful. uphill walk some more!!!
the queue was so long as well. but. don't care!

the peak tram was so fun! it looked so quaint. but many people with no manners kept pushing and pushing. don't like!
felt like a rollercoaster ride! wish it were longer.


so cute!

I loved the peak! when we got there it was around early evening. so beautiful! but the weather that day wasn't too good for viewing. very foggy. but still. it's an experience!

we ate at...........macdonalds -_- lol.
there were many couples around. seems to me like every girl in hk had a GIANT BOUQUET on vday! i think flower are very cheap there or something. really those huge ones with many bears and everything which i'm sure cost a bomb in sg. bf offered to buy for me but i declined. haha. only cause we were in hk ok mr koh!

we sat outdoors to eat. the wind kept blowing! i swear my teeth were clattering together.
we explored the shopping mall there before heading back around 7 because i wanted to catch symphony of lights.

WAH! cheat my feelings. nothing much one. few laser beams only! pfft.

we took the star ferry! i didn't know it was so cheap. only cost a few cents.


i love their view at night! their buildings and the lights. so pretty!

back at central. more shopping malls again! goodness. neverending. they have mad sales. like 80%! i've never seen anything like that before. dkny 80%!!!!!!!!!!!!! super retard. because i didn't buy!

we ended the day with.......food again!
curry fishballs. super addicted.
lazy to type already!
i want to go on holiday again! oklahoma isn't counted! because i. don't. want. to. go. boo.
i wanna go on beach holiday!

i miss my friends! haven't seen them for very long.
congrats to poca for getting a new niece! (: and nana. she has a new person to feed!
i miss bf.

=/