of rosy daydreams and pretty bubbles

so sian..I've been bummin' around a lot lately..

I thought of things which I shouldn't have thought about when I was in the shower just now..Karen..YS..etc..wadever..THE PAST..anyway I'm glad to be rid of them

I had cherries..oranges..apples n tomatoes today..WHOO! but my mom's been telling me to eat chocolates..OMG..can't believe I didn't touch any..RESIST..I must..





on another note..it is depressing..to be stuck in a house..where parents keep quarreling..haiz..I really try to ignore it..but sometimes..it just really affects my mood..years n years of arguing..it's so tiring..I've seen them at it ever since I was a kid..can't they just..give it a rest? when I see other families so happy..going out for dinners..parents holding hands..I actually feel..envious..I wish..mine was the same..to me..a house should be nice n cosy..inviting..smell like delicious food..something which I want to go home to..but my house is like........I dunno..just a place for me to sleep..it holds no good memories or anything..whenever I go out n it's time for me to go home..I just feel so sad..I can't wait to leave tis place..when oh when will tat be??? omg home sucks =(((((((((((((((








I felt a chill steal over my heart..
I hope it isn't wad I tink it is..
I will not care..
I will close my eyes n HOPE FOR THE BEST..

I wish I knew why.