I WANT THE INTANGIBLES

okay I guess this is an important enough topic for so many people to bring it up.
haha.
so I think I'll answer this burning question now.

here's the million dollar question.

WHY DO I TAKE SO LONG TO BATHE?

-_- laugh if u must. haha. i know it's funny bleah.

1. i have some obsession with cleanliness. my bf can testify. goodness knows how many times a day i ask him to go wash his hands. oh he is very obliging alright, but he mutters "鸡蛋糕" in an undertone.

2. the.toilet.is.my.sanctuary. well, last time mostly. nowadays once in a while, but more out of habit? let me explain. see, you know my relationship with my mom is a bit rocky, and she's not exactly the most sensitive and tactful person. i know that she doesn't always do it on purpose, but you know, when you're feeling down it doesn't matter cause everyting just seems to suck when you're sad. so yes, whenever i was unhappy i had to hide in the toilet, cry it all out and paste on a smile when i got out. so it's sort of a habit now. whatever problems i have or some knotty issue, i'll think about it when i'm bathing and i won't come out till i've finished thinking. usually by then i'd be fine, and if i can't sort out my problems in the bathroom, i'd explode when i come out -_-

see! it's not ALL because i'm slow. though i'd say it contributes a large part to it. hehe.

just now i was feeling moody because people have been talking to me about money all day.

i mean, of course i know i have to get a job after i graduate but you don't have to tell me that every single day the moment you step into the house right?
honestly, i'm already thinking about it i don't need you to tell me again and again. urghhhh.

today,
"she earns $10,000 a month do you know?"
...
like hello, i know ___ is capable but she happens to be TEN YEARS older than me, so how can you make such a comparison???

and later again,
"why don't you go ___'s company and work? can get the benefits..."
ohmy....she's in IT AUDIT!! how do i work there when i've never studied that zzz

sometimes communicating is such an uphill task.

and to me, not everything is about money.
i've said this before, and it's still the same.
my goal in life, is to have a happy family.
nice husband, healthy kid, some rabbits and dogs! =D
i'd be so happy.
of course i'm not an idiot, i'm quite aware that though money can't buy everything, it can buy many things la!
but don't equate everything with money can =(
some things are meaningful, and cannot be tagged with a monetary value.

i want the intangibles - the sweet smiles, warm fuzzy feeling, butterflies in the stomach,
because sometimes along the way, we get too carried away and forget the little things in life
(:

i took pics of my little boy today! shall post them after i'm done with 2 more pages.
he's so cute he makes me so happy!